Confused.... questioning myself...what will i be...i don't know...
i just realized im not a kid anymore...that im supposed to be living alone away from my parents...
i just had these feeling when my Kuya (Chickoy) arrived (from London). he give me these feeling of ambiguity about my self...that i have to find a job to sustain my needs..he's different from my other brother..at first i was thinkin' that we were so close, that i'll be excited to his arrival but it was totally opposite..and now i realized that i wish my other brother was here (Ian). My mama said to me, that its ok that we will still be happy for his arrival for he was return for a long time, after 4 yrs., and that's true, and the other thing is, according to my mama, that he was able to give another chance to his family...especially to his wife...The truth is...I pity my kuya, for he was trap with his own pride and dreams of life...actually he was dealing itwith practicality in a sense he was able to go to abroad and a had a better income there, but in exchange he could not have the one he truly love...But im so amazed and proud not only to him, but to all my brother, although they were like that, they were able to fulfill and live their dreams to go to other countries to find better future...And that will leave me so deppressing, that now im the only one who dont have a job and cannot contribute anything to my parents...huhuhu...and also the fact that i was not able to pass my licensure exam in nursing...huhuhu...
Lord...help me...dont know what to do...
in our dialect PAETA OI!!!
i just realized im not a kid anymore...that im supposed to be living alone away from my parents...
i just had these feeling when my Kuya (Chickoy) arrived (from London). he give me these feeling of ambiguity about my self...that i have to find a job to sustain my needs..he's different from my other brother..at first i was thinkin' that we were so close, that i'll be excited to his arrival but it was totally opposite..and now i realized that i wish my other brother was here (Ian). My mama said to me, that its ok that we will still be happy for his arrival for he was return for a long time, after 4 yrs., and that's true, and the other thing is, according to my mama, that he was able to give another chance to his family...especially to his wife...The truth is...I pity my kuya, for he was trap with his own pride and dreams of life...actually he was dealing itwith practicality in a sense he was able to go to abroad and a had a better income there, but in exchange he could not have the one he truly love...But im so amazed and proud not only to him, but to all my brother, although they were like that, they were able to fulfill and live their dreams to go to other countries to find better future...And that will leave me so deppressing, that now im the only one who dont have a job and cannot contribute anything to my parents...huhuhu...and also the fact that i was not able to pass my licensure exam in nursing...huhuhu...
Lord...help me...dont know what to do...
in our dialect PAETA OI!!!
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